The Million Mile Gap

Tonight I just felt a million miles from my "Father." I have been so tired lately that I have neglected the few precious moments with Him. So when it came around to tonight, we got in a large group and just starting singing some songs along with guitars and a jimbae. At first I just felt not into it. Then we got into a sharing time about hard times that we were having and telling about friends we were sad about leaving behind. And so "we lifted them up." After the first person, I felt this overwhelming presence in me. I knew who it was. No longer did that gap seem present for I was in the presence of my "Father." It was so amazing. To feel a million miles away, then in one split second he crossed that gap for me and said, "Here I AM." Just remember, He wants that relationship with you. A relationship; it is a crazy thing to think about. A relationship with the Creator of all. It blows me away thinking about it, but not enough. 

Last night we had a self defense class here at the "Compound." Well it got down to the part where the attacker attacked from behind and put the victim in a choke hold. So the instructor showed the ladies how to throw an attacker over their shoulder. Well that person who got thrown was me. I was the smallest male there, so I was the logical choice. So the first lady came up to try this NEW MOVE out. The first time she did very well. But then she wanted to try it again. And when she did I went flying. I had held my balance through the air the first time. But the second time, I had no control whatsoever. That is how I want to feel about my "Father" and his amazing glory. I want to loose all balance on my life and just know that He is there to guide me, to take care of me, to provide for me, to be all-in-all, to be my... "Lift that up" for me. That I will go flying and loose all control and my "Father" will take it from me. Cause I want Him to be in control and not me.