THE BITTER EPIC

First of all let me say, God is amazing! If you are going through a rough patch and are disagreeing with that statement, please read on!
Last week God had my number. For so long now, I have been really bitter about my Tourettes. People have always told me they were proud of me of how I endured, but they did not know the half of it. Constantly it was like I had a giant chip on my shoulder from being in class to just hanging out with my friends. I knew that I distracted the people around me and that bothered me a great deal. It bothered me even more when I heard of how I annoyed them. I know you may think that this was their fault, but not to me. I did not want Tourettes. I had no desire for it. I used to make jokes about it and laugh. But that never changed how I felt. Constantly, I had to take control measures. Like going to bed early, testing meds to make sure it would have no negative reaction with me, to all sorts of things. This really got to the core of me. Thinking all the time, why me? Why do I have to deal with this? And I never understood why God would, punish me, with this. To me that is what it was. But in all this time, I never realized I was bitter. And even more than that, bitter towards God. Any time a situation came around when my Tourettes had a chance to affect or if they did, I became extremely angered about it. Even before November, I had this problem.
Then last week, I had to test a malaria drug cause I was not sure how it would affect me. So I was heading over to the nurses office, when someone asked me, "Adam where are you heading?" And I proceeded to tell them what I was doing. Usually I would have been upset in the back of my mind about it, but at that moment nothing. It was like God wiped away all of my bitterness at that very moment. I never even prayed about it, but God still took it away. And now, just WOW! I can not believe how awesome God is. He has redeemed me from myself. Redeemed me from my bitterness, so that I might glorify Him through it all. Isn't God amazing? Taking someone like me, who had so much resentment built inside of me towards Him still took it all away in such a way that the only explanation was that He did it.