THE still small VOICE

Fear is a funny thing. It cause one to stop living, to push onward, it can even cause one to stay stagnant in their life. I do not know which I am, but I can tell you that I have dealt with this issue very recently in my life. About a week ago fear began to grip me. I felt inadequate to the work Father had called me to do. I had no clue how I would reach the people I was going to be with for nearly two years. We were given a worksheet to put it down on paper and develop ideas on how to reach those people. As I began to work on it, my heart began to weep over the fear that taken it. All day I walked around with a cloud over my head. I did not know what to do about it though. But that day I went to the Father for a special time with Him. I went back a read through my journal I have been keeping during my time here at the "compound." Ever entry spoke of how I needed the Father more. How I needed to cling to Him. Hold fast to Him. To be in Him. Almost everyday I had spoke of that to Father through my journal. So I began to write once more. The words seemed to come from the tip of my pen onto the page. My words to the Father through pen and paper. And what came out addressed the fear that had seized me. I am not to fear for the Father is with me. Even Paul was afraid, but Father told not to be afraid for He was with him. These words were assuring, but they did they were not set into my soul. So I laid down and fell asleep. When I awoke the fear that was bothering me earlier no longer resided in me. So I went down to the pond to sit there so I could be still and know. As I was sitting there, I noticed a rock on the edge of the bank. It had a water residue on it from the small waves that had battered it. And constantly those waves continued to hit the rock, but the water never went above the residue. But ever now and then, a more powerful wave came in and hit the rock. And when it did the water residue that was on the rock moved up slightly from that wave. I watched this for quite some time, then this still small voice began to resonate in my mind. This is what the voice said to me, "Adam those small constant waves are me continuing to give you what you need over and over again. So that you will be steadfast in me. So that you will not fear, but remain in me. And the larger wave is a time that is coming when all these constant reminders I am giving you will be tested. I am reminding you now to prepare you for the time to come." At that moment I knew who had just spoken to me and what He said. And since that day, the fear that had gripped me that day and everyday that I have been here was gone. Father took it over with His grace, His goodness, His mercy. For their is a time coming when all that He has taught me will be put to the test.